.. Last post for 2009 & before 2010 ...

Dear Bloggi,

Time indeed Passes very fast.. As now... we are going to say goodbye to 2009 very soon and welcome the new year 2010 .... so This Post will be my last reflections of 2009...

Lately I had Notice that ... every thing around me are changing including myself... but what i am still searching for all this years still remain the same... but i cant seems to find what i am searching for so long that ... i had totally forgot about it existence ... until ... some how lately... i saw somebody that remind its existence.. but .. until now i still cant find what i'm searching for.. So sad to say... everytime i thought i had found it ... in the end ... its appears to be not the thing i looking for... i totally hate this kind of feeling ... losing all directions out of the sudden... As I always know that heaven will not treat me well and what that appears to be mine .. is not mine at all... So i have to let them go ... i will feel sad but .. this is what always to be happening to me.. for all this years.. I should be getting used to it already ... I lost quite a lot around me ... and gain quite little .. I feel this is so unfair.. but this is my destiny ... I will work hard... to protect My things ... i will not allow any one to take them away.. I sound selfish but ... every one in the whole world is selfish... just that every one in the whole world keep denying that... In this year.. It seems that i faced alot more obstacles than other years.. this year is a tough year for me... I always feel that these will make me stronger ... As i always says ... " Things that belongs to you will remain as yours but those that dont belongs to you will ever not belongs to you " ... thats why .. i always do not force things to be mine.. people say me silly.. why don u fight for what u want... but with all fighting ... happiness will be always lost.. and even if i won... it already lost its purpose...

Thus, I really hope that i can find what that i'm searching for all this years.. I don expect the coming year to be smooth... as i know smooth life don ever step on my side of life.. but I will still work very hard to achieve my dreams and hopes that i wanted... and I am ready to face obstacles that are infront of me .. and will be fighting it through...

and I want all my best friends and friends to know that ... I , Lexander Chew, Love you people so much ... and will keep loving u people ... haha... all of you must stay healthy ...

For every new year, there will be new wishes and hopes and dreams ... i will have mine ... but old wishes and hopes and dreams will always remains... furthermore.. scars and sadness on you will still remains.. even though time will heal it but the pressence will still be there... and it will hurts more with new scars and sadness fell upon you... so we have to stay strong .. and embrace it..

so for a new year... Happy 2010 every one...

Loves

written by
Lexander chew